this lossy codec

Cole was always wary of my blog, preferring to called ‘boom guy x’ instead of his real name. Why? I guess it cramped his style. He said it was something about anonymity or someone finding him…As if his name wasn’t going to be on the credits anyway. “Besides,” I tried to tell him, “who reads my blog anyway?”

Well, both he and I were vindicated today when comments about Cole began to flood my inbox awaiting approval. It appears someone was in fact reading my blog and it was to find information about him. Cole’s family had found my post, presumably, while searching for information about his accident on the web (as I had, unsuccessfully). I guess Cole was right! Still, I am glad to have gone against his wishes to remain anonymous if I have benefited his friends and family in some way. If you knew Cole, please read the comments linked to at the bottom of the previous post and feel free to submit your own. Furthermore, Cole’s good friend and his boss & mine, David Brownlow, posted a really wonderful memorial on the ramps (rec.arts.movie.production.sound) board. Several folks have shared there as well: In Memory of Cole Gittinger.

As for me, today was rough though probably not as hard as yesterday. Of course, ‘the show must go on’ as they say and I heard a couple people mentioning how they felt it inappropriate to be shooting today. I understand and I have felt that way before, but honestly, I couldn’t think of a better way to process than by working. Further, the outpouring of love and support from the crew was really spectacular. Kind of like a family coming together to support one another. People across all departments loved & respected Cole. Still, it was hard and every hug I got brought tears to my eyes. I suppose it will get harder as the days go by and the ‘conscious’ outpouring of compassion is forgotten by many. As for me, I just can’t imagine getting used to his absence.

Before I sign off I’d like to leave you all with something that was shared at the wake I was attending Saturday night. Actually, it was something being shared there from a previous wake. A small child, upon seeing all the adults trying to cope with the passing of a close one said, “You know, she went straight up.”

If Cole passed from this world in any way like he lived in it, then he is there, unburdened, free and finding his own way. Blessings & Peace in your passing, my friend. You will be missed.

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